Hands Down.

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

- Dashboard Confessional

One For The Road.

uhh. alright. now that i'm back to driving, i'm going to need to create a new mixtape. one for the road. i'm thinking, the old stuff. good ol' rock and roll. i've got all this to start with, so, whatchu think?
mind you, i'm a huge AC/DC fan.

1. AC/DC - Back in Black
2. AC/DC - You Shook Me All Night Long
3. AC/DC - Highway to Hell
4. AC/DC - Giving the Dog a Bone
5. AC/DC - Ride On
6. AC/DC - Hells Bells
7. AC/DC - Rock n' Roll Train
8. AC/DC - TNT
9. AC/DC - Thunderstruck
10. AC/DC - For Those About to Rock
11. AC/DC - Let's Get It Up
12. Guns N' Roses - Paradise City
13. Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine
14. Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven
15. Lynyrd Skynyrd - Freebird
16. Lynyrd Skynyrd - Sweet Home Alabama
17. Kansas - Carry On My Wayward Son
18. Steppenwolf - Born To Be Wild
19. Jimi Hendrix - Voodoo Child
20. Jimi Hendrix - Purple Haze

anything else i should add?

london - amsterdam part 1.

4/4, day one. we agreed that we'd meet at the bus stop at 8.30. i was with shavi and atik, and we were on time. the bus arrived, and we saw alan and shannon running from two different directions. i never had faith in them waking up early. and if they did, something was bound to go wrong. the last time that happened, there was nearly a break up. a three hour train to london and back for 13 pounds didn't seem bad at all. the plan was to arrive in london by one or two, and find the hostel that we've booked, eat, loiter around for a bit, and then go to the jason mraz concert. from the outside, hyde park hostel looked pretty awesome. didn't look to great when we stepped inside the room. yes. one room. i know we only paid twelve pounds per head, but i didn't imagine it to be this bad. bunk double decker beds. eight of them. in a room probably the same size as my dorm room. we talked a bit, til we realized there were already occupants in the room, sleeping. at noon. who the hell sleeps at noon? in london? one white dude, one black dude. this might be bad for the girls. and why is it called hyde park hostel, when it's not in hyde park at all? bayswater hostel maybe? fast forward to 7, in this massive queue at the hmv apollo theater. quite a few asian faces. couldn't tell what were they. definitely not chinese. korean? jap? hk? viet? maybe a little mix of all of em. bought concert shirts. don't know why, but you absolutely have to buy concert shirts. like a little ritual or something. what grinds my gears is how they stall concerts with smaller name artists for like, forever before the main character shows himself. if i wanted to see that artist or band perform, i'd buy a ticket to their concert. but my ticket says jason mraz, so too bad. but one of them really caught my eye. although she really did look like an ant from where i was. priscilla ahn. look her up on youtube. korean american, with a voice that could turn a rock song into a lullaby. she's gonna be big. just you wait. half past nine, mr mraz finally shows himself. but damn it was worth the wait. played the favourites like i'm yours, 1000 things, beautiful mess, live high, lucky, and loads more. but we all know we all came to see mr toby on the percussions. colbie caillat wasn't going to be there to sing lucky, so priscilla ahn filled in for her. and she rocked. cute little giggle at the end too. after that, we had a little midnight snack that lasted til two in the morning. while walking back, we all thought we wouldn't be able to survive the night in that room. so we began scouting for other places. found the malaysian halls, but they had a curfew of eleven, and only accepted online bookings. directly opposite the halls, this hotel offered us 120 for a family suite, for what was supposed to be a 250 room, since we were only going to stay there for a good 8 hours. the room was sweet. everything was comfy. only thing that was missing from the picture was a bathroom lock.

5/4, day two. the rest of the gang was going to go back to keele today. but before that, shopping. shopping in london was amazing. supposedly amazing. for the rest of them. i didn't do any shopping. that's one for the history books. just had to keep reminding myself that i couldn't go broke before i went to amsterdam. spent most of the time we had in selfridges, a department store that can be compared a little to harrods. a little. harrods still trumps everything. i still find it weird how 19 year olds, or younger for that matter, can buy stuff from louis vuitton and gucci and etc, with a clear conscience. not trying to offend anyone here, but it's just my opinion. after a little daytime madness, the rest of them left, and i checked into the malaysian halls. my malay was a bit rusty, so it was a little entertaining and challenging talking to the receptionist, who was from kl. i had to share a twin room, but i was nowhere bothered by that after looking at the room. freaking hotel room standard yo. for the hefty price of.. six pounds fifty. half the price i had to pay for the shithole on the the first night. after dumping all my luggage, i went to grab a bite at a malaysian restaurant at the area with ashley. ashley's a guy. well if you've read my blog long enough you know ash already. i was going to go to amsterdam with him. just the two of us. how gay is that. had dinner with my brother's fiancee's aunt. complicated i know. i should've just said family friend. anyway. she worked in holland before and said amsterdam was terrific. and while i was there she told me to go to the clubs, get high, and go to the red light district. my mom wouldn't tell me that in a million years. got back to the malaysian halls by half ten. i waited up for my roommate. wanted to see how he was like. no, they wouldn't let girls share rooms with guys. this chinese dude came in. philip, if i remember correctly. from kl, a graduate. doctor. i think he's gay.


stay tuned. seven more days.

sway.

you can thank me later. but for now, i give you,
the list.

I WILL CONVERT YOU.

my all time favourite indie tracks.

Modest Mouse - Float On
Goldspot - Float On (this is a cover of the original Modest Mouse version, but it's not on youtube, so i can't paste a link. sorry. BUT IT'S REALLY GOOD.)
Rock Kills Kid - I Turn My Camera On
Rogue Wave - Debaser
Tally Hall - Smile Like You Mean It (a killers cover)
The 88 - How Good It Can Be
Youth Group - Forever Young
Imogen Heap - Goodnight And Go
Imogen Heap - Speeding Cars
Pinback - Fortress
Aqueduct - Hardcore Days And Softcore Nights (video don't really fit..but what the hell.)
The Eels - Saturday Morning
The Perishers - Trouble Sleeping
Beulah - Popular Mechanics For Lovers
Flunk - Play
Brandtson - Earthquakes And Sharks
Eberg - Inside Your Head
Petra Haden & Bill Frisell - Yellow (this totally gives Coldplay a run for their money)

whatchu think now?

jimi of the generation.

newest add on to the 'things to do before i die' list;

- See John Mayer perform live.

pretty girl.

song of the moment,
David Ryan Harris' Pretty Girl.
i've not heard of David Ryan Harris until a few days ago.
and i just fell in love with this song.
it's so sweet and shizz.

and every song i love,
i make a cover.
attempt to anyway.
i've got two up in youtube..
but i don't think it's good enough.
which is why my throat's pretty dry right now.

i have to stop looping that song before it gets old.

lil toy soldier. from another perspective.

for aeons i have been searching for this song.
especially this remix.

and now i've found it.

now the video..
can be sorta *wild..
brace yourself.

*wild - the gay converter.


Destination Unknown DJ Renato Piava Remix - Crystal Waters




i was headbanging to this song with a Coke on the table.
i accidently stabbed myself in the eye with the straw.
it's not funny.

I shall not be wanting.

God is my shepherd
I won't be wanting
I won't be wanting
He makes me rest
In fields of green
With quite streams
Even though I walk
Through the valley
Of death and dying
I will not fear
'Cause you are with me
You are with me

Your shepherd staff
Comforts me
You are my feast
In the presence of enemy
Surely goodness
Follow me
Follow me
In the house of God, forever

- Jon Foreman

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, ^[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

time and again i am comforted by these words when i feel my world's falling apart.

in this case, when i'm missing home to death, and the pressure of exams.

and therefore i come to the conclusion,

The Lord is my Shepherd,

I shall not be in want.

God'll take care of me. and the bloody exams.

=)